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I hate waiting. I do not know why but it drives me insane. I can remember at a young age deciding to always be a little late so all my friends would be there already when I arrived. This way I wouldn’t have to sit and wait as many time before for everyone to arrive.
Of course that was not the best way to handle dealing with waiting.
I think part of the reason I hate waiting is boredom. I am stuck with my own thoughts and feel I have tons of things I could be doing instead.
My life is go go go!! I am always over committing myself and double booking myself. I love to say yes and I live on the higher stress level than most because that is just what I am use to.
I think this began when I started college. I kept testing myself and seeing if could handle working full time while taking a full load of classes. As I pressed myself, I learned more and more how I could squeeze so much into my day. I got use to it.
This made it easy for me to move in to grad school as well as take on starting my own business. All of this was not east but I did it all. I made it happened by stretching myself way too thin.
I am my own superman.
Watching Justin struggle with a little pressure makes me laugh. I tell him suck it up!! You can do it! I can not believe the little stress he has can cause him so much drama. What I forget is that he is a mirror of a normal stressed life. I do not need him to become me. I need to become him.
Being in your 20’s you can handle all the stress because you balance it with exercise and your metabolism is a lit stronger. Now in my 30’s I start to feel the burn that stress has on my health, my thoughts, my sleep, my life.
It is so easy for me to say I will stop but I won’t. It will take a lot of time to learn to settle down and find my new comfortable space.
Stress will always be a part of life but you have the power to choose what you do about it and how much you create for yourself.
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Bishop
on 18 May 2009 at 5:44 am #
Michael…I hate to break it to you, but you’re never going to slow down. It’s just not in your nature. You’re going to continue to push yourself to achieve as much as humanly possible – or in your case…”superhumanly possible” LOL You may feel the time crunch, but let’s face it, you thrive in those situations.
Pete
on 18 May 2009 at 8:25 am #
It’s ironic, but in many ways I handle things the same as you. I always over-book and am constantly running late (usually on purpose as well). I do thrive on the stress, but, like you, it has definately affected me differently in my 30’s. It’s been a struggle, but I am still working on making adjustments to make things easier on myself while still creating that sense of urgency.
Mike
on 18 May 2009 at 11:53 am #
Wow…this is me in a nutshell. Always carrying the world on my shoulders. Sometimes we need to stop, smell the roses and enjoy life!
catherine
on 19 May 2009 at 10:18 pm #
i find myself grateful that you are not taking up meditation like everyone else, and yet also hoping that you do savor the small moments!
you be you!
Jimmy
on 20 May 2009 at 3:41 pm #
Are you really choosing to believe that the arbitrary turning of 30 has affected your ability to handle life? Come on! Don’t give into that!
