This week was my ex’s birthday. I was preparing to send him the normal birthday wishes but then I stopped and started to think about what I was doing.

He has received all emails letting my friends know the exciting things that have happened in my life. He has received all the holidays text messages and cards I send to all my friends wishing them well. I just remembered though, he has not responded within the year. 

If any of my friends stop responding to my emails, phone calls or text messages, I take that as a hint that they are busy and I stop including them. They will get in touch with me later if they want to. But, why haven’t I discontinued to contact him? 

I figure it is because we shared more than a friendship. We had a relationship that lasted 3 years but that was 8 years ago. I think part of me is afraid of letting it go. It is easier for me to keep the contact because I get to hold on for a little longer. But what am I holding on to?

Our time has come and gone, I know this.  We had our great times but we learned that we just weren’t meant to be. We had separate goals and dreams. We had different expectations and we have selected different paths to follow in our lives.

It is easy for me to say I will always love him but who do I love? I love the him of the past who shared his life with me. I do not know who he is now, 8 years later. I have great memories of us but they too are of the past. He is not part of my present nor is he part of my future.

I decided it was time to let him go…

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