Here are this week’s IF questions…

If you could alter one physical characteristics of your mate, what would you change?

What would I change? I do not know if I would. If I did he wouldn’t really be who I fell in love with. I know I could come up with a list of things I could change about myself so maybe I would just ask him what he wanted and make his wish come true. I do not know but I do not think there is anything to change physically.

Now, with that said, I would like to cut his ties with his GPS “Emily”.

If you could dine alone with anyone from any period in history, which person would it be?

Like my friend Nick said, these dining questions are coming up A LOT. I really can not come up with anyone else to eat with. Maybe one of my friends so we can laugh and enjoy our time? I know I love to eat but how many more dining questions do I have to answer!

Maybe I am tired of inviting people. I want someone to invite me from history. So who is it going to be…I am waiting…

If you could, in retrospect, change one thing about your childhood, what would it be?

Again, I do not know if I would change anything because it made me who I am. But, I do know something I would change. I would change being bullied in school for being gay.

I, of course, hadn’t come to terms with it at the time. I was in middle school and a day didn’t go by where the boys were not calling me a fag. Not just saying it, which happened everyday, but making a point to crowd around me and taunt me almost to tears. I knew better not to cry because that meant it only got worse. I watched as my friends would slowly pull away from me. They didn’t stand up for me or support me, they just looked down and were embarrassed to be seen with me. I never felt so alone in my life.

This happened so publicly that I am surprised an adult never stepped in. Then again, they were too busy dealing with their lives and it was just another kid being teased. There were tons of times adults would jump in when racial slurs were mentioned or girls were attacked but being gay was not protected. It was OK to call a kid a fag.

In the 8th grade my mom withdrew me to be home schooled after the 3rd year of taking the abuse. I was finally free from it all and was able to pick myself back up. My mom saved me.

I wish I would have stood up for myself. I wish I wasn’t so scared back then. I wish I wouldn’t have all the insecurity issues I had to work on because of this experience. BUT, this experience made me who I am today. This is why I stand up for myself NOW. This is why I stand up for others who are being bullied or treated unfairly. This is why I learned to choose better friends who are with you through thick and thin. This is why I learned to love myself.

If you could have any room in the world become your bedroom from now on, which room would you choose?

I would love an open air room that is on the ocean. I would love to have a bed where you can wake up and see and hear the ocean waves crashing. I would love to open the windows to feel the ocean breeze in my room and smell the salty air.

Those are my answers for this week’s questions. What are yours?