Remember my story about my Kidney Woes? Kidney stones sized from the 4mm and smaller pass on their own. Mine was 2mm and it got stuck right outside my bladder. SO CLOSE!! Because it was not moving they have to do surgery.

I was scared to death.

I had panic attacks days before and was a nervous wreck the whole entire time. I did not know what do with myself. I was freaked and I just wanted to wish it all away. No matter how much I wished, it wasn’t going to happen. I was going to have to face it.

And I did!

How did I face it? I had to stop myself from thinking of all the worst things that could happen. I had to stop reading all the websites about my surgery. I also had to stop feeling bad about the whole situation.

I was scared and I had to admit it to myself. I also had to remember that I know tons of people in my life who faced scarier surgeries than mine but they all handled them and moved on with life. I realized my dad had to be scared to death when he was told he was having a triple bypass. He was in the hospital for a week but he did it. He made it through and moved on with life. I had to realize how scared my sister must have been facing breast cancer and all the fears that went through her mind but she went through it. She moved on with her life as well.

There are tons of children each year who deal with very frightening diseases and surgeries but they do it, with a smile, and move on with their lives.

I thought about all those people in my life who faced fear with their health and handled it, survived and moved on with their lives. I knew I was in all their thoughts and their love and support would help me through it. If they could do, so could I.

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